&i dont believe in happy ever afters.
oh, whatever.
I've just stopped believing long ago.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
i kept my promise, although i still cried. but at least i didnt cry in front of rachel, i didnt cry in front of the gym pple, it was after wad my dad said, then i cried. i thought i wouldnt cry, i didnt felt a thing when rachel said 'bye!', i didnt felt a thing when rachel cried herself, i didnt felt a thing when rachel got into the departure gate, i didnt felt a thing when she turned and wave at us behind of that thin piece of damned mirror.

it was my dad's sickening remarks that made me cry. he said 'wah, you never cry ah! i want to see you cry leh!' and there, my tears fell. why? i didnt know the answer at all. i just dont feel good about that. i didnt get to see rachel after she went into the departure gate, and this will be the last time in a year, i get to see her.

i don't i'll recover very quickly from this, this thing has been disturbing me for ages, and throughout this whole week, i cannot concentrate on my work anymore. no matter how hard i study, those things just cant get into my head.

only me, erkee, nelson, jasmine, nina, beijia and kaixiang went to send rachel off. renee called me to let her have a short talk with rachel, weiting passed me a letter and a sms for rachel. kaixiang bought rachel a diary. i think rachel will really appreciate those who were there just now, we gym pple rock. and kaixiang? you rock too(: the way we are looking at rachel when she got into the gates was just so sick. we just kept staring, and did not know what to do at all.

erkee and i went to airport at 9, one hour before everyone arrived, even earlier than rachel. went to eat and walk walk around. he was sick, but still, thanks for accompanying me. met up with rachel, but later went to look at the aeroplanes with erkee. and i really felt like crying when i saw the aeroplane rachel will be taking. hai.

her plane has alr took off half an hour ago. take care.

friends forever, rachel(:

&still trying to find a happy ending

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